Quixotic Quest

12 Sep

Sometimes I wonder if I am on a Quixotic quest.  My dream for as long as I moved to my acreage, nearing fourteen years ago, has been to be able to live off my farm.  I want to be a full time farmer and get up in the morning and be at work as soon as my feet hit the floor.

I have wonderful ideas that include traditional farming, hay, agri-tourism, and an on-farm market.  The dreams are wonderful!  I could even do a winery or events center.  I’ve already learned so much!  I’ve made several kinds of goat’s milk soap, and I keep trying new ones.  I’ve had wonderful reviews.

Pan’s Delight Goat’s Milk Soap

Monkey Love Goat’s Milk Soap

I’ve worked on starting the market via the Internet and going to the farmer’s market, but I really want the on-farm market.  One of the things I’ve heard every time I’m at the market is how much people would like to buy my goat’s milk.  In order to do that, I’d have to put up a new building that meets FDA standards.  I’m thinking that the almost $4/quart I saw for goat milk at Wal-Mart might make that a worthwhile venture.

My biggest barriers are making farm payments and the cleanup/building.  I don’t have the equipment, knowledge or strength to do a lot of the work that needs to be done.  The ones that said they would help have lost interest.  I’m stuck with a mess.  These are the remains of the old trailer, but I don’t even know how to go about the cleanup of this mess.

There’s also the remains of the old cougar cages, and I can’t count the number of concrete slabs at the old home location here.

The other big enemy is money.  It’s hard to do all this cleaning and building without a source of income to fund it.  As I desperately want to work off the farm less and spend more time working on the farm, I just received a financial setback on my off-the-farm job.   I’m not sure if I am tilting at windmills, or if I truly need to be worried about this.

I do wonder if I’m on a Quixotic quest rather than building a solid future.

Linking to Alphabet Thursday where the letter of the week is the ever challenging Q.  I’m also linking to Thankful Thursday.

42 Responses to “Quixotic Quest”

  1. TexWisGirl September 12, 2012 at 4:57 pm #

    a very good Q reference. i have never been a good ‘dreamer’ as the practical side of me pushes those genes to the side. so i hope you find a way to realize yours.

    • Teresa September 12, 2012 at 5:09 pm #

      I know I’m in a slump as far as making progress goes. I am just not sure how to turn it around.

  2. Candy C. September 12, 2012 at 5:47 pm #

    Cougar cages?!?
    It is hard to be able to make it these days with only on-farm income. If it weren’t for hubby’s retirement income, there is no way I would be able to have my little Farmers’ Market bakery business, I would have to have a “real” job. I hope things work out and you can realize your dream!!

    • Teresa September 12, 2012 at 5:53 pm #

      Thanks. It really is the house/farm payments and cleanup/building that holds me back. My living expenses are minimal otherwise.

  3. Alica September 12, 2012 at 5:57 pm #

    You’ve got dreams… I say go for it!

    • Teresa September 12, 2012 at 5:59 pm #

      I’m trying. I just feel like I’m spinning my wheels right now.

      • Alica September 12, 2012 at 8:09 pm #

        I hope I didn’t sound like I was making light of the obstacles that are keeping you from your dreams. I just think you have neat ideas, and the ambition to get it done! 🙂

      • Teresa September 12, 2012 at 8:22 pm #

        Not at all. I took it as encouragement! 🙂

  4. Marnita September 12, 2012 at 6:52 pm #

    Hey just stoped to say you are not alone on the feeling. I have hit those feelings time and again.

    • Teresa September 12, 2012 at 7:51 pm #

      I think part of it is the time of year, but I really do seem to have hit a brick wall. Thanks so much for stopping in and taking the time to leave a comment.

  5. Anne September 12, 2012 at 6:59 pm #

    Everything has it’s season. Life is a continual ebb and flow. Such words to hear but hard to live with. This is a time of the year for slowing down and reflecting on what is important and using your reserves. I enjoy your honesty in sharing your life. Peace to you.

    • Teresa September 12, 2012 at 7:52 pm #

      Thanks. I know this time of year is hard because I tend to think about all that stuff I wanted to do but didn’t get done. I guess, I’ll have to reflect on how to get it done while we’re in this reflective time. 🙂

  6. hounddoggy September 12, 2012 at 8:17 pm #

    Sometimes scavengers will come and haul off things that are valuable to them. Like metal……and maybe concrete blocks and such. I don’t know how much of what you have or if that would be worthwhile. Also do you know about Kickstarter.com. Several blogs that I read were involved in Kickstarter projects. I don’t know the details but your situation is in line with others that I’ve seen. With the University close…..maybe you could find some students to help….(cheap) I think there are a lot of students that are looking for experience and would love to spend time on your farm. Or maybe you could barter–soap (or something) for work?

    • Teresa September 12, 2012 at 8:23 pm #

      Those are good ideas, but I think most of the stuff is just junk. The concrete needs broken and used to help stabilize the tiling we did. I need some dynamite to put under a couple of butts more than anything. 🙂

  7. Jen September 12, 2012 at 8:28 pm #

    I’m a dreamer… good luck with everything and keep on dreaming. Dreams do come true.

    • Teresa September 12, 2012 at 8:34 pm #

      I hope so! I hate having to leave the farm, especially in these short winter months coming up.

      • Anne September 12, 2012 at 11:39 pm #

        Are you at a point where you may have to sell the farm? Am I reading between the lines correctly? I sure hope not and I hope there is an answer somewhere for you.

      • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 6:42 am #

        I’m fine with the farm, it’s just making the farm my sole work that I’m struggling with.

  8. JDaniel4's Mom September 12, 2012 at 10:10 pm #

    I so hope this can come together. What a wonderful shop it would be.

  9. Pat @ Mille Fiori Favoriti September 12, 2012 at 11:45 pm #

    I’m so sorry to hear you are struggling with your farm, Teresa! Perhaps you can sell your goat’s milk soap on the ETSY web site for extra cash? Can you ask your church, local boy scout troop, college fraternities, etc, if they have members who would be willing to volunteer their time to help you clean up the farm? I hope you find a solution soon as I know how much you love your farm and goats. {{ hugs}}

    • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 6:44 am #

      I’m fine for living, it’s just the amount of money it would take to put up a building that slows the dream down. I can’t ask the farm to pay for itself (which it does) and support me as well. If I didn’t owe money on the farm, it would be easy to make my dreams a reality. I just don’t want to wait that many years.

  10. Mimi Foxmorton September 13, 2012 at 8:35 am #

    I feel your quixotic pain……..
    I have so many dreams………..
    The more you talk about your plans the more I see the co-op, right next to those windmills…….. 😉

    And hey! Those lone steps are leading right up to my dream vardo……….!

    Keep tilting…………

    • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 12:25 pm #

      Definitely! I know it will work, but I just want it now!

  11. Debra September 13, 2012 at 8:54 am #

    I guess that you can only do so much and it sounds as if you are doing the best that you can ! I think that if you wanted to move forward with a shop etc you might need an investor or partner of sorts that would only be invested in the shop portion ? But I have no clue if that is even feasible….

    • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 12:26 pm #

      I don’t even know who that could be. I don’t really work and play well with others. I will keep working towards it though.

  12. Rocky Mountain Woman September 13, 2012 at 9:09 am #

    I don’t know, but I can tell you that following a dream is never easy and you have picked a big one. I’ve loved following your journey which has been similar, but not exactly like mine.

    Keep Calm and Carry On! I know it’s easier said than done, however…

    • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 12:26 pm #

      I just wish I weren’t so darned impatient!

  13. Anne September 13, 2012 at 1:42 pm #

    I’m so glad I got it all wrong-you just don’t like going to another job. Patience is not one of my virtues either.

    • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 2:30 pm #

      I used to have more patience, but the older I get, the more I realize the value of time. 🙂

  14. Sue Anderson September 13, 2012 at 2:10 pm #

    If yours is a quixotic quest, then you’ve caught me up in it. I love your ideas!


    PS. And I am going to go check out that soap!

    • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 2:31 pm #

      I just love being close to home and the land, and I admit that I enjoy spending my days with goats more than teenagers. 🙂

  15. Marigold and the Goatmother September 13, 2012 at 4:15 pm #

    It is hard to be patient, isn’t it? I have to say I know this feeling, though maybe in a different sense. But just remember that we are always in the place we are meant to be, so try to relax and let it happen. It will, because you are that determined of a person. You make things happen even though they may not happen as soon as you would like. But they will! I am sure of that my friend. 🙂 Angel hugs!

    • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 4:19 pm #

      Thank you. You are so sweet. I do hope things are going well (or as well as they can be for you). I want you to know that I’ve been thinking about you a lot this week. 🙂

  16. Rosey September 13, 2012 at 5:57 pm #

    That soap looks wonderful. I hope your receive a big turnaround in finances (for the better) soon, and get the help you need so you can start living your dream even more.

    • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 6:30 pm #

      I’m fine with the finances, but I just want things to happen with the farm much faster. Oh well.

  17. Anne September 13, 2012 at 9:43 pm #

    Oh I love your dream! I would buy your soap so I think Pat has a great idea, go to etsy and start small ! I so love listening to your stories. Dreams are sometime difficult to achieve but I would never give up! Keep pressing forward. I will pray for you too! It never hurts to ask the Big Giy for some extra help. Best of wishes to you!

    • Teresa September 13, 2012 at 9:48 pm #

      Thanks. I do have an on-line market place HERE. I didn’t do an esty shop because I’d like to eventually use one site for sales as well as on-farm events and happenings. I won’t give up.

  18. Andy September 14, 2012 at 9:01 pm #

    Goat’s milk soap sounds so very European…in a good way of course (smile). Farming is a lot of hard work, but never give up on your dreams…sometimes they do come true. Wishing you all the best with your future endeavors.

    Quench My Fire

    • Teresa September 14, 2012 at 10:43 pm #

      Thanks! It is a lot of work, but I wouldn’t want any other life. I just keep working harder to make my dreams come true.

  19. Libby Keane September 22, 2012 at 8:31 pm #

    Love the soap! Have you considered making and selling it? I make soap here, and it goes for between $4 & $6 a bar, depending on ingredients. People rave about it. I’m with you, I want to roll out of bed and be at work.

    • Teresa September 22, 2012 at 8:36 pm #

      I have started selling my soaps. I’ve had all fabulous comments on it. Glad to hear yours sells well also.

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