One of the hardest things about loving animals is knowing when to say good-bye. You know it’s inevitable that they are going to leave this world before you. I sometimes worry about that balance of letting them have the longest life they can versus the quality of life they can live.
Cutie is one of my original girls. You can see in the “Everyday Cutie” picture that her face is strained. She’s had arthritis in her hips for a while, and it’s been increasingly difficult for her. She still would smile for the camera and overall seemed happy.
This fall, she would struggle to keep up with the herd. They’d be clear back on the hill while she was still slowly working her way across the bottom. I was babying her and making sure she got plenty of food. There was a time or two I shut her in the Love Shack because someone wanted to pick on her.
Since the blizzard it’s been very difficult for her. She struggles to get around on the snow and ice. It makes it harder for her to get enough to eat and walk to the cattle tank to drink. Our recent cold spell has left her shivering constantly.
I covered her with a blanket and put a heat lamp on her, and it still wasn’t enough to warm her up. I will say, she did enjoy the warm vegetable soup so much she about ate my fingers too when I scooped the veggies up for her.
Her eyes are bright and clear and she still has a huge attitude, but I know she hurts constantly and is afraid of being picked on. Yesterday morning, her knee was all swollen making it even harder to stand up. She never left the building at all.
I don’t know if she fell on the snow or someone was mean, but I can’t be there to provide her with drinks of warm water all throughout the day and readjust her lamp and blanket after she moves. I know she’s not going to ever improve enough to be able to live happily and comfortably again.
I’ve said my good-byes to Cutie Pie because as much as I want her to be with me longer, she’s not happy like this. It would be selfish to make her endure the constant pain just so I can have her in my life a little longer.
RIP Cutie Pie Saanen (2/1/2004 – 1/2/2013)
Linking to Jenny Matlock‘s Alphabe-Thursday where the letter this week is G.