Sometimes I wonder if I am on a Quixotic quest. My dream for as long as I moved to my acreage, nearing fourteen years ago, has been to be able to live off my farm. I want to be a full time farmer and get up in the morning and be at work as soon as my feet hit the floor.
I have wonderful ideas that include traditional farming, hay, agri-tourism, and an on-farm market. The dreams are wonderful! I could even do a winery or events center. I’ve already learned so much! I’ve made several kinds of goat’s milk soap, and I keep trying new ones. I’ve had wonderful reviews.
I’ve worked on starting the market via the Internet and going to the farmer’s market, but I really want the on-farm market. One of the things I’ve heard every time I’m at the market is how much people would like to buy my goat’s milk. In order to do that, I’d have to put up a new building that meets FDA standards. I’m thinking that the almost $4/quart I saw for goat milk at Wal-Mart might make that a worthwhile venture.
My biggest barriers are making farm payments and the cleanup/building. I don’t have the equipment, knowledge or strength to do a lot of the work that needs to be done. The ones that said they would help have lost interest. I’m stuck with a mess. These are the remains of the old trailer, but I don’t even know how to go about the cleanup of this mess.
There’s also the remains of the old cougar cages, and I can’t count the number of concrete slabs at the old home location here.
The other big enemy is money. It’s hard to do all this cleaning and building without a source of income to fund it. As I desperately want to work off the farm less and spend more time working on the farm, I just received a financial setback on my off-the-farm job. I’m not sure if I am tilting at windmills, or if I truly need to be worried about this.
I do wonder if I’m on a Quixotic quest rather than building a solid future.