Consequences

Sometimes it’s overwhelming to see the consequences of my choices, especially when it means that my sweet animals are the ones that pay.  If you visit here frequently, you’ll know that as recently as yesterday I was lamenting over Coral’s pregnancy and due date.

Coral

She might have been bred by Boeris when he escaped, or she was bred when I put her with Fionn.  I debated for a long while before I decided to breed her and the other three young girls.  They would only be a year old when they had their kids.  I’d had nine girls give birth right around their first birthday throughout the years, and there were no problems.  Of course Coral and Clover were little.  I also told myself that their genetics make it very unlikely they will ever get very big.

Coral and her mother Pistol

The thing that really made me decide to put them with Fionn was the fatal genetic defect that has become present in my herd.  They would be my test for Fionn.  Coral, Clover and Victoria have to be carriers, and the outcome of their pregnancies would give me a pretty good idea whether or not Fionn was a carrier.

Fionn

It didn’t take me long to get worried and wonder what I was thinking when I put them in with a boy, but by that time, she was already bred.  For the last month, I’ve been debating whether she was due in June like I had planned or if she was due even earlier.  The physical signs were confusing.  Her udder was getting bigger than I would have expected.  Her stomach wasn’t really as big I would expect for that early date.  There was discharge last week.  She seemed to isolate herself.  On the other hand, her ligaments were not even beginning to loosen, which has to happen before a kid can pass through the birth canal.  Even though it was too early for her to give birth if she were due on May 12th, I really was keeping a close eye on her.

Last night when I got home, I could see that her tail had been wet.  With our rains, I didn’t know if it was a concern or not.  She was acting fine and ate with everyone.  When I went back out a bit later, she was again wet.  It was obvious that she was going to have her kid, but she didn’t act like she was in labor.  Generally, once the water breaks, they should have kids very soon.

I washed and put a glove on and did a quick exam.  I really couldn’t feel that she was opening much, so I called the vet.  When he got here, he did the same exam and came up with the same conclusion as me.  ”If the fetus is anywhere near normal size, it isn’t coming out that way.”  We loaded her up and took her to the vet’s office for a C-section.  At best, her kid was nine days early, so there was no expectation of having a live kid.  It really was a matter of saving Coral’s life.

He shaved her side to prepare for the incision and then he gave her a shot to knock her out.  As much pain as it seemed to cause and as much as she struggled just for the exam, he decided to do a complete sedation.  As a precaution, he also tied her head and legs in case she came to before he was finished.  Then he quickly scrubbed her side and made the incision, cut through three layers of muscle to expose her uterus and then cut through the uterus wall.  He reached in and found the baby in the main horn of the uterus and pulled it out.  He figures that the kid had been dead for a day.  The placenta was already turning dark.  He checked for another kid but didn’t find one.  He got everything back in place and stitched the uterus shut, sutured the muscles in two layers, and finally used one long running stitch to close her skin.  He left a very small space at the bottom to let the wound drain.

Because of the fetus’s development, it was obvious that she was not due in May.  This kid was probably due towards the middle or end of June.  It was a Fionn baby.  I don’t know what caused her to lose the baby~her small size, being hit by a big goat, or a fatal genetic defect.  It does, however, make me start thinking about Fionn as a carrier.

I feel so horrible that Coral went through this.  I knew it was likely (50% chance) that we would lose a Fionn baby.  I just had no idea how dramatic it would be.  She is the sweetest little girl you could ever hope to meet.  She’s back home and physically recovering well.  She’s crying a lot though.  It’s very traumatic for a goat to lose their kid, just as it is for a human.

I know I can’t ever make up for this, but I’ll do my best.  She’s never going to be with a billy goat again (and there is a shot I can give to make certain she doesn’t settle if a buck gets out).  Not only do I not want her to go through this again, but it also is much more likely she would have difficulties because of scar tissue from the surgery.  I do plan on loving her and spoiling her for the rest of her life.

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65 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. TexWisGirl
    May 04, 2012 @ 18:58:29

    I’m sorry,teresa. I know this is tearing you up. I hope she will heal well.

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    • Teresa
      May 04, 2012 @ 19:00:49

      Thanks. She should be able to fully recover. She’s on antibiotics and getting pain killers. I have her away from everyone else, so they can’t pick on her.

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  2. becky3086
    May 04, 2012 @ 19:14:53

    I think you did well with this. You did things that I would have not known to do. I have not be reading here long enough to understand your breeding decisions but you just have to remember that we don’t know everything and we do the best we can.

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    • Teresa
      May 04, 2012 @ 19:20:44

      Thanks. I made the choice that was overall best for the entire herd. It just wasn’t best for Coral. She is very likely to completely recover.

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  3. Nancy
    May 04, 2012 @ 19:26:45

    In the end — you did the best you could do, Teresa. I’m happy that Coral is okay and will live a long life as a spoiled goatie. :)

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    • Teresa
      May 04, 2012 @ 19:40:59

      I just hate when it seems like my best isn’t good enough. I knew it was possible to lose some of these kids, but I had no idea about how hard it would be on her to get through this.

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  4. audrey
    May 04, 2012 @ 19:35:34

    Wow. I’m crying. I’m so so sorry. I can feel your pain. This just like what happened to Dasiey.(without the surgery) it is tramatic not only to her but you also. I know how much you love your babies. I wish I could be there to help you through this you may not relize but you helped me through when it happened to Dasiey. I will have you in my thoughts daily in hopes that you both will get passed this. Dasiey is happier then she’s ever been. And very healthy. Keep that in your thoughts for Coral.. love Audrey

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  5. Kelly Reich
    May 04, 2012 @ 19:37:25

    I’m so sorry to hear what happened. I know that raising the goats has it’s ups and downs but that is just so sad. I know that you will give love and kisses forever. I’m crying over a goat I have never met. Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

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  6. A Damsel In Flannel
    May 04, 2012 @ 19:45:02

    Teresa, I’m so sorry. It’s hard seeing your animals in pain. :-(

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  7. Julie
    May 04, 2012 @ 19:55:44

    Oh nooooo! I knew when I read the title that this was going to be sad. So sorry to hear the news about your sweet baby. I hope both you and Coral recover quickly. You handled the chain of events better than most by recognizing that there was a problem and taking action immediately. Coral is one lucky gal!

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  8. Dianna
    May 04, 2012 @ 20:09:17

    Aw…. I came here to thank you for visiting and commenting on my blog today. Knowing nothing at all about goats, I can only go by how I’ve always felt about my pet cats, and can sympathize with you – knowing that an animal we love is hurting. Hoping that Clover will recover (emotionally & physically) quickly. And I know she’ll enjoy that spoiling that she’ll get for the rest of her life!
    Dianna

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    • Teresa
      May 04, 2012 @ 20:24:43

      She’s already gotten green grass and kisses tonight. I just let her mom and twin sister in with her, and I think that will help her too. Thanks so much for stopping by.

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  9. Callie
    May 04, 2012 @ 20:46:38

    Sorry this had to happen to you but you made very good decisions checking on her and calling the vet right away. It is so traumatic dealing with these life and death birthing problems. At least it didn’t happen in the night in the rain. With all your care she will be fine. Take good care of yourself.

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    • Teresa
      May 04, 2012 @ 20:52:22

      Thanks. I tend to second-guess myself all the time when things go wrong. I know it was the best I could do for her, but I still feel so bad.

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  10. Pat
    May 04, 2012 @ 23:01:29

    I’m so sorry that you and Coral had to go through this. I’m glad she’s expected to recover fully and will be a much loved pet! She is beautiful.

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  11. kateri
    May 04, 2012 @ 23:35:37

    So sorry, but it sounds like you did the right thing and Coral will be okay in the long run. She is a beautiful goat.

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  12. Mimi Foxmorton
    May 05, 2012 @ 05:13:26

    Finally catching up with this whole story.
    Scary. And sad.
    But, as always, you do the exact right thing.
    I think you really should be a vet! You have soooo much knowledge…..
    and, more importantly, the compassion…….

    You know Fionn is my favorite……..that wee head-topper just breaks my heart! :)

    So….at some point in our messages I’d like to know more about The Shot.
    Might come in handy with Darla, eh? ;)
    Or, maybe you can convince me to breed her………. :)

    Healing energy to Coral from me and Darla!

    xo

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    • Teresa
      May 05, 2012 @ 08:45:15

      It would take too many years for me to go back and become a vet now. I’d have to give up my cozy income. I guess that isn’t going to happen. The shot is simply Lutalyse~it brings them into heat, so if they are bred, it causes them to abort.

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  13. Alica
    May 05, 2012 @ 06:39:07

    I’m sorry Teresa. That’s got to be so hard. She will love you and follow you around the rest of her life I’m sure! :)

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    • Teresa
      May 05, 2012 @ 08:45:56

      She would prefer I just sat with her constantly right now. It’s very confusing and upsetting to her.

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      • Alica
        May 05, 2012 @ 11:38:19

        Poor girl. I’m sure she’s upset. Hope the physical healing goes quickly so she can get “back to herself” soon…

      • Teresa
        May 05, 2012 @ 11:42:06

        As of yet, the incision still looks really good, so I’m optimistic that it will be a relatively quick heal. We’ll see on the emotional side. Thanks so much.

  14. Gone Country
    May 05, 2012 @ 07:08:47

    I’m so sorry! My heart goes out to you and Coral. I know you’re both struggling with this. I hope she heals quickly and I know she will love every minute you’re loving on her!

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  15. Melodie
    May 05, 2012 @ 07:10:36

    I know how hard that is.We went through it too with Sweet Pea.we bought her bread and did not yet have enough experience yet to recognize the girl we got her from was lieing about her age and she was bred way too young. We ended up with a c-section.I felt terrible for he ,she mourned her baby for a long time.Two years later I did breed her and she did just fine. I hope your sweet Coral makes a speedy recovery!

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    • Teresa
      May 05, 2012 @ 08:48:07

      Thanks. I’m not sure the age was the problem with losing her kid. If she had another four to six weeks to grow and let her body prepare for birth, she might have been okay with having it. I guess we’ll never know on that one.

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  16. Roan
    May 05, 2012 @ 07:15:18

    How sad for Coral. I guess I’ve never thought about animals mourning, but it does make sense. Hopefully she will be back to her normal self soon.

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    • Teresa
      May 05, 2012 @ 08:48:50

      She’s truly in mourning. She’d prefer I didn’t leave her side right now, but I’ve put her mom and sister with her for company.

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  17. Jen
    May 05, 2012 @ 07:31:41

    So sad… sorry you & Coral have to go through this. So glad you made the right decision to save Corals life and to not let her get pregnant again. My heart goes out to you & Coral this morning. Glad shes doin good.

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  18. Texan
    May 05, 2012 @ 08:04:50

    I hope Coral’s recovery is uneventful and speedy. You did all you could for her. We always beat ourselves up I know. I do it too, but when one has goat’s it goes without saying that the buck is going to get out eventually and get to the girls you do not want him to. I have beat myself up too plenty of times over stuff that has happened. (big hug)

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  19. chichomeschoolmama
    May 05, 2012 @ 09:46:33

    Oh this breaks my heart to read this. I hope she recovers well.

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  20. anniebutterybooks
    May 05, 2012 @ 11:13:42

    I am so sorry! Your post brought tears to my eyes. I’m so glad you were able to save Coral. She is a very lucky little girl! Don’t beat yourself up over what happened. You very obviously love your animals and have the best intentions for them.

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  21. dianne7777
    May 05, 2012 @ 11:22:24

    i want to hug you both
    thank goodness she is healing and has such a wonderful caretaker in you

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  22. Kay L. Davies
    May 05, 2012 @ 16:28:23

    I certainly know how awful it is to think we’ve made the wrong decision where a beloved animal is concerned. It’s as if we have harmed a child somehow, especially as Coral is crying. I suspect the crying is hormonal, however, and not because she’d been looking forward to motherhood.
    I know you’ll do everything you can to soothe her until she feels better again, so she’s in good hands. And with her mother and sister for company, her mourning should be over soon.
    Give her a hug, and tell her lots of people in blogland care about her.
    K

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  23. Candy C.
    May 05, 2012 @ 17:51:31

    Coral is lucky to have you as her owner because you knew what to do to help her and got her to the vet. I’m glad her incision is healing up well and that her mom and sister are there with her. Poor little thing! {{HUGS}} to Coral and to YOU!

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    • Teresa
      May 05, 2012 @ 18:23:37

      Thanks. She still cries whenever I’m outside, but her mom and sister enjoy all the hay they want without any of the big pushy goats around. :-)

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  24. ladyfi
    May 06, 2012 @ 02:27:57

    Those stitches look nasty. Poor goat.

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  25. Eileen
    May 06, 2012 @ 06:50:15

    OH Wow, I feel so sorry for Coral and her loss. I hope she recovers quickly. You are wonderful with your critters, I loved the photos and post. Have a Happy Sunday!

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  26. Bee Girl (AKA Melissa)
    May 06, 2012 @ 23:06:24

    Oh…your sweet girl :-( I am so sorry to hear that all that happened! I hope she heals quickly. She is very lucky to have such a caring “mom” :-)

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  27. Joyful
    May 07, 2012 @ 16:52:38

    I love little goats. I used to play with them on a neighbour’s farm when I was young. I have fond memories.

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  28. Window On The Prairie
    May 08, 2012 @ 11:52:34

    So sorry Teresa. Take comfort in the fact that you did all you could. Hugs your way. Suzanne

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  30. JessicaWCassidy (@wifetoalineman)
    May 12, 2012 @ 04:22:20

    awww! this post makes me cry :-( it is heart-breaking, hope Coral is recovering safely, take care of yourself too Mama :-) Dropping by from Camera Critters. We used to have tow goats but they are boat males

    http://www.kidsnpet.com/2012/05/scrapper-our-female-beagle-puppy/

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